byebye blog.

My new home…-whatever-

shut up!

I'M DOWN!!! I FAILED MISERABLY!!! This is not me!! I hate myself!!!

storbo ko

pahinga?! di ko na siya kilala ngayon..

BUSY-->bagong best friend ko!
busy kasi daming ginagawa
busy kasi gusto makalimot
busy kasi yaw ko na mag-isip
busy kasi pagod na ko
busy kasi sinasaktan mo ko
busy kasi gusto na kitang palayasin dito
busy kasi nag-aaral para sa recitation na hindi naman ako natatawag kahit nakatatlong chapter na kami
busy kasi ung accounting nagpapansin masyado
busy kasi feel ko
busy kasi pinili ko to
busy kasi para parehas na tayo
BUSY kasi dito ako masaya...

ngayon.. gusto ko naman istorbohin sarili ko. para malamn ko kung sobrang nakakaabla ba ko. para malaman ko kung hindi ako masayang kausap. para malaman ko na mas masaya kapag busy. masaya nga. pero parang nilayasan ko narin sarili ko. kaw din eh nialayasan mo ko. di siguro ako masaya pagkaabalahan. salamat sa mga panahong inalay mo sakin. salamat sa mga salitang nagparamdam na importante ako. salamat sa tuwa na naidulot mo sa buhay ko. salamat dahil ikaw ang dahilan ng lahat ng luha ko ngayon. ikaw din ang dahilan kung bakit best friend ko na si busy. pinakilala mo kasi siya sakin eh. ako kasi si istorbo.T_T

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pahinga?! di ko na siya kilala ngayon..

BUSY-->bagong best friend ko!
busy kasi daming ginagawa
busy kasi gusto makalimot
busy kasi yaw ko na mag-isip
busy kasi pagod na ko
busy kasi sinasaktan mo ko
busy kasi gusto na kitang palayasin dito
busy kasi nag-aaral para sa recitation na hindi naman ako natatawag kahit nakatatlong chapter na kami
busy kasi ung accounting nagpapansin masyado
busy kasi feel ko
busy kasi pinili ko to
busy kasi para parehas na tayo
BUSY kasi dito ako masaya...

ngayon.. gusto ko naman istorbohin sarili ko. para malamn ko kung sobrang nakakaabla ba ko. para malaman ko kung hindi ako masayang kausap. para malaman ko na mas masaya kapag busy. masaya nga. pero parang nilayasan ko narin sarili ko. kaw din eh nialayasan mo ko. di siguro ako masaya pagkaabalahan. salamat sa mga panahong inalay mo sakin. salamat sa mga salitang nagparamdam na importante ako. salamat sa tuwa na naidulot mo sa buhay ko. salamat dahil ikaw ang dahilan ng lahat ng luha ko ngayon. ikaw din ang dahilan kung bakit best friend ko na si busy. pinakilala mo kasi siya sakin eh. ako kasi si istorbo.T_T

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Thoughts to ponder:
->dont spend your lifetime Loving a person if you have no plan to tell what you feel. It's SELFISH!
->Love can never be so beautiful without friendship. One leads to another and the process is irreversible. The best of LOVERS are the BEST of FRIENDS.
->EMPTY is the life that's filled with nothing but THINGS.
->If your ENEMY is hungry feedhim. If he's thirsty, give him a drink. By doing this you'll make him burn with SHAME.
->telling the TRUTH and making someone cry isbetter that telling a LIE and making somone smile. Live life well..^_^

hmm.. some sentences are applicable to me.. cause right now I feel so much anger, pain, love and selfishness..

another thought:

"You make my heart beat FASTER and SLOWER at the same time"^_^

falling for other person?! or just a victim of the situation?!
hai.. so confusing...

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Thoughts to ponder:
->dont spend your lifetime Loving a person if you have no plan to tell what you fee. It's SELFISH!
->Love can never be so beautiful without friendship. One leads to another and the process is irreversible. The best of LOVERS are the BEST of FRIENDS.
->EMPTY is the life that's filled with nothing but THINGS.
->If your ENEMY is hungry feedhim. If he's thirsty, give him a drink. By doing this you'll make him burn with SHAME.
->telling the TRUTH and making someone cry isbetter that telling a LIE and making somone smile. Live life well..^_^

hmm.. some sentences are applicable to me.. cause right now I feel so much anger, pain, love and selfishness..

another thought:

"You make my heart beat FASTER and SLOWER at the same time"^_^

falling for other person?! or just a victim of the situation?!
hai.. so confusing...

hayzzz...

I'm already preparing for my debut this coming September and I'm looking for extraordinary things to do in my debut.. of course, i don't want it to be just another debut.. I want it to be a Simple yet SUPER unforgettable day not only for me but also for my friends.. and so while I'm browsing.. I bumped into PEYUPS (to those who doesn't know this is a webbie of students in UP, and they post any kind of articles there.. just click the link to find out)
http://www.peyups.com/article.khtml?sid=2309-->
this is entitiled in a rage.. this is about a SUPER-YAMAN-BITCHY-BRAT-COnYO-GIRL as in sobra!! Her debut cost P20M and according to some comments there that she had a 4 page spread at a newspaper.. like duh!!! do you really need that stuff?! hai... and xempwe my 18th birthday wouldn't be like that noh!! There's more to life than a single birthday party worth P20M!

oh well, i've been thinking of a chocoalte souvenir.. kasi naman ung mga figurines la naman talga purpose un mag-iipon lang ng alikabok sa bahay un! and for those na hindi masyadong sentimental sa susunod na general house cleaning nila matatapon din niya yun! kahit ung card di din niya ititira!! hmp!! Kea chocolate nalang.. para makain pa nila.. ang xempwe may pouch xa and ung pouch pde pang coin purse or lalagyan ng cellphone.. hmm.. it's ok na diba?!

My mom is planning to celebrate it at Max's resto.. hmm.. it's not bad naman kasi I have attended a debut like that na and it's very formal indeed.. ^_^ hmm.. parang di ata bagay sa Courage ang formal party? kea dapat may twist!! hay.. panu kea kung.. all gurls must come in curls?! hahaha!! diba para naman may effort sila?! and for the guyz.. hmm.. dpat may something Pink?! gusto ko nga ilagay sa invitation ko "NO PINK, NO ENTRY!!" hahaha!!^_^ oh diba?! that's so me!

hai.. so til here nalang muna.. dami pa sana ko gusto sabihin eh.. mea nalang gabi siguro.. hm.. mag-aaral pa pala ko mea?! hmm.. basta!!

emptiness

last night i felt so empty..

I wanted to feel special
I wanted to feel LOVED
I wanted to feel warm
I wanted to feel YOU
I wanted to feel ATLEAST OK..

wen ur suppose to feel nothing

"kita ko kau ni _______ ... swit nga eh.. Hehe.. Joke"

nanaman?! kung iipunin ko ung mga message na ganito sakin siguro may 5MB na un?! di ko naman sila masisisi dahil mas madalas ko siya kasama compare sa lalakeng dapat talaga ay kasama ko. siguro nga dahil sa may past kame madaling pumapasok sa isip ng tao na may something special between us ngaun. masakit para sakin na mapagkamalan na kami. minsan nagbibiro alang ako para di naman halata na na-ooffend ako kasi siguro para sa kanila compliment un. hindi ko lam kung anong tamang words para i-describe feelings ko ngaun pero basta.

mga guyz pag-alam nilang nanjan ka lang palage pinababayaan ka nalang nila. especially sa case na alam nila na sobrang mahal mo sila and di mo sila kayang iwan. mas madalas kasi na mas expressive ang girls sa nararamdaman nila so ganun nagiging result.. pero i'm not saying na sa lahat ng times ganun. i apprecate ung mga guys na super expressive sa feelings nila. and mahirap makahanap ng ganun.. kasi minsan ung iba naman nagiging super expressive.. lahat ng sobra nakakalason na diba.

back to what i'm talking bout earlier. basta yaw ko na talaga maramdaman to pero wala akong choice or eto talaga ung choice ko among other choices na mas ayos.. masukista ako

is it love or just a fantasy?!

i love you but i don't
you love me but you dont
we're ideal, we can never be real


stop making me feel special if you don't really intend to make me feel so.. i'm falling for you.. help me not to fall..